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hullo, i'm an awesome person, are you an awesome person too? why yes, yes you are :)

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:icononii-chan93: my quiet cousin

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  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Cinematics album by Set It Off
  • Reading: Edgar Allan Poe
  • Watching: red band society, still.
  • Playing: Knights Fable
  • Eating: i wanna try Soylent, sounds interesting
  • Drinking: see above
Seriously, if my school laptop didn't block DA, i would be on everyday, but no, its blocked. 

I wrote a memoir for english class, it was supposed to only be 3 pages long, it ended up being 14. I got a 95/100 on the overall project and my english teacher said that I captured exactly was a memoir is supposed to be. In case you didn't realize, I wrote about an actual day in my life. More specifically, the day it was decided that i should do inpatient at the adolescent "mental behavioral health unit." I can't even read it without being an emotional wreck. When my teacher handed it back to me, she told me i should blog. She seriously believes i should blog. so I made a Blogspot figuring that why not? But I have no idea what to do with it, what to say. And besides who would read it? not very many people read what i write here. (when i actually write something)

So yeah, That's my life right now.

Oh and I'm borderline failing 2 classes, failing another 2 classes and passing one class. All because i find it difficult to do homework. Serves me right i suppose. 

That's all i got. Bai 

onion boy 2  

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  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: Cinematics album by Set It Off
  • Reading: Edgar Allan Poe
  • Watching: red band society, still.
  • Playing: Knights Fable
  • Eating: i wanna try Soylent, sounds interesting
  • Drinking: see above
Seriously, if my school laptop didn't block DA, i would be on everyday, but no, its blocked. 

I wrote a memoir for english class, it was supposed to only be 3 pages long, it ended up being 14. I got a 95/100 on the overall project and my english teacher said that I captured exactly was a memoir is supposed to be. In case you didn't realize, I wrote about an actual day in my life. More specifically, the day it was decided that i should do inpatient at the adolescent "mental behavioral health unit." I can't even read it without being an emotional wreck. When my teacher handed it back to me, she told me i should blog. She seriously believes i should blog. so I made a Blogspot figuring that why not? But I have no idea what to do with it, what to say. And besides who would read it? not very many people read what i write here. (when i actually write something)

So yeah, That's my life right now.

Oh and I'm borderline failing 2 classes, failing another 2 classes and passing one class. All because i find it difficult to do homework. Serves me right i suppose. 

That's all i got. Bai 

onion boy 2  
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: a fan
  • Reading: melissa marr
  • Watching: red band society
  • Playing: Knights Fable
  • Eating: i wanna try Soylent, sounds interesting
  • Drinking: see above
    my excuse: i was grounded, and before i was grounded, i was tired from preseason, and in-between preseason and grounded-ment, too much homework. 

    well, there ended up not being cuts but Coach did put all her favorites on varsity regardless of sportsmanship or even soccer ability in some cases. guess what happened? THEY LOST ALMOST EVERY SINGLE GAME. then there was us, JV, the team no one gives a damn about and even less so because we are GIRLS jv. we won or tied all but 3, we lost our last 3 games. and in a home game, i had the chance to score a goal. actually, i was told it would've made it in had i actually realized that the goal was there and shot for it. i saw the goal keeper but it didn't go through my mind that, that meant the goal must be nearby hehe. the girls soccer last game was last night, but JV's was on tuesday since the team varsity played against didn't have a JV team. why did varsity lose? because they all have cliques off the field, and thats fine, but the problem is, that division in the team shows on the field and the opponents can easily take advantage of it, not only that but everyone is out for personal glory so no one wanted to actually do any teamwork. why did JV win? because jv was the opposite of that, there weren't even divisions between the upper and lower classmen, everyone was either close friends or amiable acquaintances, there were no enemies within the team or people who really disliked each other. we were all on good terms with everybody and that was true on and off the field.  lesson learned guys, lesson learned. 

    its been a hard week for me, starting off with monday being my sisters 6th birthday. on the day of, i didn't feel nothing, like last year, but instead my mentality changed and i became overly hyper all day, completely unlike myself, perhaps overcompensating for how i really felt? i cried everyday for a whole moth before, and i cried during the varsity game on tuesday too, not that anyone noticed, i had been crying silently on bus rides the whole season, as i had last season. so why notice me crying on the bleachers. i cried because i saw a little boy, maybe 3 years old, and thing in me that drove me to protect my sisters, even so far as to remove myself for them, that instinct whatever it may be, when i say him trip, i wanted so badly to go to him and help him, as i would have my sisters and it just hurt so much. it hurt because i couldn't do that for them anymore, because i couldn't do it for this child, whose mother was actually nearby so less worries there. i can't take care of them anymore, and it breaks me apart only to start anew the next day. and i suspect its hurting them too, no, not from missing me, but from my mothers horrid incapability of taking care of a child, of helping them grow into themselves. she continues to do only what she did when i was there, which is bad as i was the mother of the house (in duties only,  not name) but she seems to think you need only carry a title to truly be something. which is incorrect. 

    so yeah, thats my life. check out the story i submitted, "King Aleron and his new guest", I'm told its not bad. 
    “Sir?” asked the servant. “He may enter now” replied a rather bored King Aleron. He watched as, surrounded by his soldiers, what appeared to be an old beggar shuffled in. Clearly this would be just as boring as all the others, why couldn’t common folk ever be interesting? The servant cleared his throat. “Sir, this is the last one.” “Oh good” said King Aleron as they both turned their attention to the beggar coming up to his throne.

    The beggar stood before the king, still surrounded by soldiers, as a thick silence filled the vast room in which they stood. Finally, the impatient king spoke up. “Well? What supplication have you come to make to your great king?” But still the silence dragged on, and still the king got angrier and angrier. But then, the beggar finally looked up, showing his face and the supposed great king gave a small start. “Could it be?” Thought the king with fear. “Good, he remembers.” Thought the beggar, allowing himself a small smile, unnoticed by all, before resuming his previous countenance. King Aleron made a motion with his hand and the soldiers surrounding the beggar dispersed into the shadows. 

    More alert now, the king was careful as he said his next words. “Have you anything to say, old beggar? Surely you must as you have come all this way.” The beggar smiled enigmatically and nodded. “Then speak your piece.” Said King Aleron in response. “Very well, my name is Placido. And as it turns out I do have some words to exchange with you.” True to his name, Placido could hardly be heard by the king though he was but five feet away. “Firstly I come seeking atonement for past sins.” Placido looked at King Aleron expectantly, but by now, he had recovered from seeing this visitor from the past and his physiognomy had remained the same as ever. “And secondly, well, I’d like a place to stay, food to eat, as I have a disease and am dying. I simply wish to be comfortable in my last days” 

    Placido laughed, a horrible sound, as King Aleron backed away from him in horror, almost tripping over the stone steps leading to his throne, screaming for his guards. “Take him away! Take this pestilent man away from me!” as the guards rushed forward from their places in other parts of the castle, King Aleron heard “Are you sure you want to do that?” in Placidos’ whispery rasp “I might be dying but you do remember that I still hold power over you don’t you? Though I had hoped to do this in a more pleasant way…” King Aleron, clearly remembering, called out to his guards once more as they were entering the grand hall, his voice trembling. “Wait! Halt! Stop!” as they all stumbled to a standstill he gave them new orders. “Make sure our… our guest here is made comfortable and receives the utmost care and attention, treat him as you would… a relative to the throne.”  
King Aleron and his new guest
we started Oedipus Rex (i took the screenplay home to read over the long weekend hehe) and my english teacher decided that me and another student would be receiving "more advanced assignments" i assume this is because i got "advanced" on 4 out of 5 categories on the Pennsylvania CDT. i do not know what the other student got. Anyways. one of our different assignments was to, instead of writing 5 sentences, write a small paragraph with the 5 words in it and the paragraph had to make sense. what did i go and do? write a short story that feels like an excerpt from a story (that doesn't exist)

So, the day(thursday) after baking until 2 in the morning, i, In my first period class, (its more of a DIY class so the teacher leaves you alone) wrote this story that was due 3rd period. i feel a small measure of pride for this as i was barely functioning that day and was still feeling those effects today :) 

this story is mine and mine alone, enjoy. 
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  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: counting stars by one republic
  • Reading: the heist
  • Watching: crisis
  • Playing: Knights Fable
  • Eating: i wanna try Soylent, sounds interesting
  • Drinking: see above
    in soccer i mean, in soccer. 
we started practice on monday and there were at least 8 freshmen, way more than last year, and there are also several newbies in other grades as well. and unlike last year, this year, enough girls showed up(40) that theres going to be cuts. And because of my incredible lack of ability in all things soccer despite the innumerable amount of years I've played, i will probably be one of those cuts unless theres more people with a lack of what is being looked for than i originally noticed. Doubtful though. And those cuts will most likely be made known on friday, because of a game on saturday. well I'm going to continue doing my best although i know i will most likely get the boot. 

    I've looked everywhere, i even turned my room upside-down looking for that portfolio with ALL of my drawings from when i first started to 8th grade, and i cannot find it anywhere. i remember having it here at my aunts house, but i haven't found it yet and theres no where else it could be since i never took it out of the house. and even then its odd for it to be anywhere other than in my room. I've been drawing a little more lately, I'm hoping i will be able to return to it as i once did, because although its been a bit of a struggle to do it, its all i can think about, drawing. quite weird, I'd say. 

    homelife is okay, to be honest, i can complain all i want but really I'm lucky to be here right? i don't have to worry about someone abusing me in some way, or torturing me with spiders for their entertainment, or demanding mindless, immediate obedience.. oh wait, i take that last one back. so what if I'm now being choked by rules and rules, so what if i get yelled at for "ruining everything" when I've done nothing. so what if whats expected of me is that i should be a normal teenager now but oh wait no don't do that. so what if they expect that because i don't live with my parents anymore that all of that stuff shouldn't be affecting me anymore. but it does, and it always will. and again, so what? no one cared about me before, so why should these newer people in my life care now? 

yesterday i sat down in the car and oh my gawd there was a spider at eye level and my neck and face was partially encased in its spiderweb, the day before i thought id felt strands but i hoped i was just imagining things, nope. so what happens? my body, remembering much more of the spider torture than i consciously do, immediately goes into full panic mode and I'm sitting there freaking out, i wasn't screaming or anything it just looked like i was having a miniature seizure or something. my aunt freaks out seeing me freak out but somehow magically doesn't see the spider right between us sitting on its web. i manage to get the car door open in my panic (she hadn't even started the car yet) and jump out. at this point I'm near tears and trying not to cry and trying not to scratch my face off by trying to get the strands of web i can still feel off my face. and then, my aunt yelled at me for freaking out like i did it on purpose to piss her off. i don't understand how she can accept my cousin needing to be held down by several people to get a needle in him screaming and crying all the while simply because of memories from when he was an INFANT and was having small seizures and needed blood testing, but cannot comprehend why my being done things to with spiders can cause such a great uncontrollable fear in me. how the heck does that work? 

but hey, i don't live with my parents anymore and they didn't have to take me in (most likely they felt it was their presbyterian duty to god or something) and yes, i am grateful for that, but that doesn't mean i have to kowtow to everything, which i know if i did give in and do that, i would be living life just like i did with my parents; immediate obedience and total submissiveness, which is kinda why i have difficulties functioning in society so no thank you. its been over a year and i still struggle severely with people asking me what i want. like hey "do you prefer this or this" or "do you want to do this or this" i can't answer questions like that, i try, but it just ends up with me unable to complete a full sentence because i am accustomed to "do this" not "do you want to do this" and living with my aunt, thats what I'm supposed to learn. and i can't if i revert to the way i was trained. 

sorry its been a couple weeks since i last updated, not like it really matters anyhow, i doubt many even read these. 

bai till next time. 
  • Mood: Neutral
  • Listening to: counting stars by one republic
  • Reading: the heist
  • Watching: crisis
  • Playing: Knights Fable
  • Eating: i wanna try Soylent, sounds interesting
  • Drinking: see above
    well, while at virginia my aunt refused to let me borrow her computer so heres how virginia went;
i really didnt do anything there, my cousins went to the pool everyday and even went to an amusement part of sorts, meanwhile i spent the day watchng tv shows from the 2000s like dark angel and buffy the vampire slayer(they were having an all day marathon of buffy) and i also saw several episodes of castle. 

    Krislund; i cried for the first time ever at a camp, thanks to a girl named katie, more of that in a couple paragraphs.
well, i was in the Survivor camp along with two of my cousins, the other was too young and was in a different group. there were 8 boys and 7 girls, the youngest were i believe lizzie and keltin at 10, the common age was 12, my two cousins, and most of the boys and girls. then at 13 were skyler(we became friends) and katie....more on katie later. then at 14-15 was myself, autumn, and noah. the two people whose company i particularly enjoyed were Autumn and Skyler, both girls. 

within the first hour i had figured that autumn was a lebsbian, then the next day that possibility solidified because when mentioning her girlfriend she used only gender neutral terms, when a person does that, they have to think about it, because the first instinct is to say "he" or "she". i bring this up because no one else figured it out until the very last day, when she actually told them, and it was funny because all the guys voted on who would get the farthest with her(they voted a guy named john, who was really funny and also the one she spoke wih the most). when they said that i said "just because a girl talks to you doesnt mean you will get anywhere with her" they all got kinda down when i said that.

Skyler was pretty funny and would always say "lovely weather we are having here" in this funny accent whenever she wanted to distract us from the subject at hand. we joked around a lot, and she was the storyteller of the group, she was a really good storyteller at that. in one story she killed me off by having me fall face first into a blazing campfire.

i didnt really talk to any of the guys, except my cousin. oh my god my cousin rachel though 0.o she went to the nurse literally everyday for the most ridiculous things, and madison, a girl she befriended went quite often as well. 

and finally, we have reached Katie.... our counselor lindsey is convinced(quite frankly so am i) that her parents are at fault and she very much wishes to punch them in the face(she actually knows katies parents too). Katie doesnt understand the meaning of "delayed gratification" everything has to be now now now, my aunt only saw katie during mealtimes and even she saw this. also katie has it in her mind that worms and spiders are discriminated against and moths should be wished into the afterlife but that mosquitos are bloodsucking monsters and they should all die... talk about inconsistent. anyways, she, like me, believes that no one could possibly like her, and that everything is always her fault no matter what, however unlike me, she doesnt bottle all of this inside, im not sure she knows how to keep things to her self at all. she was always very loud, partially because she felt no one was listening and partially because she lacked volume control. so while i am less obvious about my dislike for myself and my eternal guilt for things i didnt do and the such, with her, its all in your face. and the fact that she had it set in her mind that no one liked her and how obvious she made that, made it hard for us to like her, she made it difficult in her behavior towards the rest of us, she once hissed at madison when madison asked her a genuine question because she thought she was making fun of her. and she lacked self control, to the point of she has none. if she is even slightly frustrated(which in survivor camp we were a lot) she made it clear to the world and if she was even slightly upset or frustrated she would break into tears, once they took our tents and we had to sleep under tarps, she was sobbing for hours, which, because lindsey couldnt leave her held back our tarp construction by a lot, where it took the boys a couple minutes, it took us a couple hours. 

every night, we had this thing called nightfest, well, one night it was raining so we had to have it in the main building(where we typically had meals) so they play songs as usual, and theres this one song about being undignified and during that song you ae supposed to act crazy and jump around, well, being me, i did not want to, despite urgings from my friends and my cousin michael, so what does katie do? she apparently thinks the soution is to grab me from behind(out of nowhere i might add) and lift me up and down, and my automatic response is to fight my way out and yell at her saying "dont do that!" then lindsey who only witnessed me yelling at katie separates us. you would think that was the end of it but no, as soon as she separates us i randomly(or so it seemed to me) started crying(well it shouldnt have been surprising, i have PTSD and anxiety) lindsey sees this and comes over, she figures it has to do with katie and asks what happened, i after explaining in a sobbing sort of way start bawling saying "i dont know why im crying" over and over again as skyler, autumn and michael circle me, it took me about 30 seconds to override the emotions causing me to unexplainably cry and attempt to shut down, unfortunately this was one of those times where the "shut down" part doesnt work so the rest of nightfest i had to fight myself tooth and nail to not cry again. katie later apologised after being thoroughly scolded by david and lindsey(the counselors for survivor camp) and that was when i explained that i have PTSD and anxiety problems, lindsey was observing the apology and she paled when i said that, then she said "oh... i wasnt aware this was something that was going on.." and i just said "yeah well now you know"  its not like i put down PTSD on all my health forms, ya know?  there was another incident where keltin pretended he was going to hit me with his walking stick, again out of nowhere, and once again i had to fight myself so hard not to cry for a second time that week, well, not counting the silently crying myself to sleep the night katie did that. i have rules, rule 2 is "do not feign" aka what keltin did, theres a reason its a rule. 

    however, the reason i was so confused as to why i was crying, was because before, i would either lock up or i would "jump" in a special way, its complicated to explain this particular "jump". never before had i cried because soemone set me off, that was a first. katie nearly unraveled a years worth of trying to not react badly like that everytime a door was closed or a sound made or so on and on, so now that metaphorical wall has been cracked before it was even fully built :/

but other than that, it was fun, minus the bible lessons anyhow. i might ven return to survivor next year as my return to krislund is a requirement anyways. my favorite part was timber the husky, hes only 6months old but he is ridiculously well trained and docile, many of the counselors can pick him up and he wont protest(hes already full sized though) hes also really cute XD and free to roam the entire campgrounds, he even visited us at our camping area once, which was in the forest not out in the open. 

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Thank youfor the watch. :love:
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Hello! I moved from Reveant to this account~
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ur welcome ;)
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yoooo thanks for the llama!!!(sorry for the late reply)
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ur welcome :)
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o.o... I just noticed your picture thing. xD love the cats.
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Thanks for the fav, Cuz!
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ur vewwy welcome fellow cuz :)
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So, How are things going? :)
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its going ok, i hear ur growing out ur hair, hows tht workin out for you?
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thanks so much for the fave! I love your drawings, by the way!
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